these violent delights have violent ends.

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |1:47 PM

i didnt sleep the whole day yesterday, went out. and watched twilight. huhu. daddy was furious to see me with my laptop on early in the morning. haha. he ask me to pray . huahua. went to madrid. sis got 3rd. and the prize is cash money. cb! tsktsk. i fail uh. huahua. then went to follow mum go market. sumpah penat. then went home. bro kena bantaii. sodapp. hehehehehhe. he did something bad. fucker. haha.

ANYWAYS, im going for camp people. tonight im going off alr. ok. be back on wednesday. duhhh. gaji tkde. duet tkde. fuck. ok meeting my barbell partner later! k bye!

Pleasure plus Pain is L.O.V.E

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |12:57 AM

can you imagine, the thing that you hold on to this far, just doesnt make sense?
i wonder. i think. i dont know what im doing. im such a stupid ass. i couldnt even hold on to my own rights. i have rights on my partner. but i dont know why im weak. i dont like my partner to go to club or bar or whatever place(;D) without me. i know i have the rights to tell my side on how i dont like and how i wish she wont go to that places. sigh. but somehow, i just cant stop my partner. i just dont know what to say. i cant stop one from doing what ever the heart wants to do. basically, i just cant say no. i dont know why. maybe because before with me, my partner already do all this stuff. i could not stop it can i? no right. it feels wrong. but i know its right. everybody knows i have the rights. i dont like. but i just want my partner to have freedom . do whatever the heart wants. i dont wanna be selfish. im not right ? i dont have doubts. but anything can happen. im not angry with anybody but myself. say that ure not gonna club or whatever when im not around? save it. it doesnt matter. really. cause i dont wanna be selfish. i cant say no. whatever ok. i can say im very angry when i know you went. i really am. FUCK IT.

im a disappointment.
im a bad gf.
but i allow u to do whatever you wanna do.
ok? im just being fair.
i want to be happy.
you want to be happy.
so lets get happy.

i know if u love someone, u have to accept them.
as they are but if u love someone, u want them to change for the better, and u also wna change for the better for the other party. so if ur partner really loves u, they'll change for the better for your sake. - this is good. but bull for my case.

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<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |7:48 PM

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<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |2:57 PM

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<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |1:59 AM

Wednesday

today, i woke up at 950am and i rushed to have my shower and head to tampines. Naddy never give me a wake up call. sobs. anyway, i cut my hair. gahhhhhhhh. sideburn mcm soyal. and meet meh and reena. ni due lembab. mcm sotong! then head to my place. and we play soccer. Maz and his friend was there too. Aeis , faz and Roy also make it . then we play2. yada-ed. and then me and meh head to yishun to buy my stuff and Reena went home. and then we ate at banquet. was freaking HUNGRY! we didnt eat the whole day. only ate at 930 -.- tsk tsk. ohlord. im tired now. kbye!

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |1:06 AM

When you are soft-hearted, you are a very forgiving person, people tend to take advantage of you. Furthermore, they will use you. Like how they want stuffs and things to go their way. But you must stand up for your rights. True? You cant be like a leaf following the direction of the wind. You should do what you think thats Best for You. Though we love others too, its just yourself till the end. True? Sometimes we need to sacrifice and throw everything far far away. Even the things, the people we used to love. Nevertheless, we cant live alone. I'm not asking to hate or to ignore. But sigh, old and mature enough to think whats best for oneself.

Farewell to Siti Hamidah Bte Mohd S**F*R*.
Hope you have a safe journey to Nepal.
And come back one piece. =D
Take Care of my Shades like how you take care of yourself.
And dont get cold climbing the mountain.
Make sure you slim down.
Make sure you get fairer.
Hah, Shesh. I'm gonna miss you, you fucking cunt!~ *just kiddinggg*
;DDDDD
All the best. And bring back Gopal&Durga Love together. NYEH.

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |10:10 PM

today, met prettyHandsome and then we played soccer. at the street soccer court with my brother and cousin. kite tk pakai kasot k! hahahaha. and dier score la seh. ^___^ *KENING NAIK2* hahaha. aku jatoh la k! pasal ade air. knnbccb. aku pon score. yay. and and Arep kicked the damn ball and hit Meh in the back. fulamak. lol. baby tros jatoh sia. hahahaha. i was like, sial la. cb. she said she felt her heart stop beating for awhile. haha. dong. and when we sat, another ball pass her head. LOL. bad day. kesiannnnnnnnn. anyways, tmr i wanna cut hair. k bye.

and... i hate this part right here.

Labels: mukeerrrr.

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |1:47 AM

k im sleepy. today meh went to my house. and something funny happen. my bedroom door was locked from inside. and we cant open the door. so we're stucked inside. and my cuzzy finally kicked the door open. and night i went with meh to go meet aida. and i saw ecal ok. da nampak real live. huhu. and big condolescense to Shakz Kimchi. im sorry for your loss. God loves your dad more ok.

and and pretty handsome freaking sexy la k. sumpah giler. lol. sumpah aku nak amek video, dier tk kasi. LOL . hahahhaha. today, the date will be remembered. 2nd. actually yesterday uh. haha. and and we did some new things today. ok . ok da da. aku sumpah ngantok giler.

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |10:56 PM

bad day. i overnight at uncle's place. and when i came back home the today, mum caught me off guard. she smell ciggarette. lol . so i was beaten like fuck. she beat the hell out of me. till heaven comes in. and hell comes in back. lol. anyways, Renny was being a dear reporting to me and asking how i am. I know she loves me. kan renny. hahahaahah. anyways, im waiting impatiently for my pay. and i wanna go camp.. this house is like so cramped. and im bored. gahhhhhhh. midah, pisang told me to do stuffs. and and im missing Renny la k. where is she? i also dont know. driving kot. haha. and prettyhandsome , balek la. dah kul bape ny. ayamak. kentot uh. and and liverpool sucks. lost to fulham 3-1 yesterday. pishawww. BOO. hahahahha. and man u win. but i overslept. haha.didnt watch the game tho. and and. im super bored. k bye cinta! hmm!

<$BlogDateHeaderDate$> |2:11 PM

why when im not around, she look for me?
why when im not home, she texted me up?
why when im not present with her, she will miss me?
why when im with her, she always scold me?
why when im just beside her, she need to shout?
why she cant see me happy?
thats why i have to choose my own way of life.
cause she dont like me to go my way.
Sometimes i wonder.

nevertheless, one less lonely girl is super nice. im addicted to Justin Bieber.